Sleep Deprivations

I find myself having sleepless nights every night in the last couple of weeks. My mind seems to never shut down and as much as I try to keep myself busy in the day as soon as I am ready to sleep my dreams become nightmares usually. It is rare for me not to have some random nightmare evolving evil robots taking over the world or things in my life that happen to seem more dramatic in my dreams that when I wake up there has been no such thing as a good sleep. I spend most of my days looking for work but it seems that us recent graduates are competing against older more experienced people who are also looking for work.  Its hard to keep positive vibes going when everyone in your entire family is un-employed as well and the community that I live in seems to be dealing with the recession as well. Listening through the window men who sit around drunk in their backyard for hours till the early morning still drinking and their rudeness's keeping you up and realizing that when you open your eyes the light has come to your room and they are still awake, its mind blowing that they are wasting away in their depression. 

One of the positives that has come out of these harsh times is knowing what great friends I really have. Knowing that they are willing to help me out and being there for me has been amazing and knowing that they genuinely care is something that makes me feel like they are my family. I know that they are there for me through the thick of it and they know that I will be there and have been there when everything seems to be falling apart.

“Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life’s about creating yourself.”
- George Bernard Shaw